Let the Blackness Roll On...

I haven't in awhile. I apologize for those that do read my blog. My two best friends are sitting here next to me (my black lab, Missy, and Punkin my chihuahua/terrier mix..............Sitting here, relaxing, not a care in the world except when they will get their next bowl of food.



My titles as of late, I don't know if any of you realized, but are excerpts from lyrics of some of my favorite songs........(Yeap mostly metal) The one above is from Acid Bath's "Bleed Me An Ocean" Music makes me forget about things that are going on here in the "real" world.........



Pain Management was well weird. Essentially pain management doctors are anesthesiologists who help to treat chronic pain by well prescribing medication. There are other ways, but I think they only use the EPIDURAL STEROID INJECTIONS or SYMPATHETIC NERVE BLOCKS in extreme cases where the medications do not work. So what am I on you ask? Well for one............When he started to talk to me, it was like he was in my head. That is what I meant by meaning weird. It would have been like he was in the room with my husband and I arguing why I can't pick up the kids because I hurt to bad. He gave examples of EVERYTHING that I have pretty much experience on a social basis in dealing with people and pain. And what did I do? I just busted out started crying...........When the nurse asked if I was depressed, I said No of course not. LIE LIE LIE, DENY DENY DENY. The doctor could see right through it though, possibly because he has dealt with so many patients like me and he has pain issues himself, so it was nice talking to someone who understands the physical as well as emotional impact Pain has on a person. I am now on an antidepressant for the umpteenth time. None have really worked before, maybe this one will be different. I am also on a Muscle relaxer that is given to pediatric patients so it doesn't make me loopy he says (Musle relaxers never made me loopy though) and a non-narcotic Pain Reliever that I don't think works to well :( But that is okay as he said he might have to switch medicines and try different things till I start feeling relief.....I have to see him once a month and they are very strict as far as medicine refills are concerned. I can only get them filled at one pharmacy. There is a possibility that they could spring a surprise drug test on me just to make sure I am not taking anything I am not supposed to or more medicine than I am supposed to be taking (which is never an issue for me, I take them as I am told) I also had to sign this contract to be treated with Narcotics, something the state of Louisiana needs? I guess so they won't get suspicious of my monthly refills? Who knows.........Anyway I am not worried about that shit. I just want pain relief, which I don't feel at the moment. I was just able to get my meds filled yesterday so it is only my second day, will give it time.........But I think I might have to make a call next week.........We shall see how it goes!



Anyway I need to go to the post office to mail out a box. So I will go read my daily reads in a bit and say hi to you all

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Down In A Hole.......

I've got a fucking headache that won't quit........Damn this sucks and I can't wait until tomorrow. I need relief. Neck pain relief, leg pain relief. Shit I feel like an old lady and this sucks ASS...........Wish me luck tomorrow, will let you all know (all 2 of you) that read this know what happens.......Arghhhh

Bleed So Easy...

Okay so maybe I was a lil harsh on the Bears guy down below hoping that he would choke on a chicken bone...............Karma is what it is. And I believe in Karma..................Nope I am not a Christian for all wondering as well. Hope that doesn't send any of you running for the hills.

Speaking of religion (which I do try to stay away from this topic, but sometimes ya just can't)Has anyone seen Wicker Man with Nicholas Cage? That movie was just weird and it certainly did give neo-pagans a bad name. I can understand it was a remake of a movie from like the 1970's , also an adaptation of the book The Ritual so maybe they just didn't have a complete grasp on what being a Pagan really is. What people don't understand, they are scared of. Anyway I am gonna watch the 1970's original, got that on my Netflix list so that is coming soon.............Just want to compare the two movies.

ASSHAT of the Day :: So tomorrow I head out to Pain Management, I was supposed to have an appointment on the 18th. I spoke with the lady from the insurance at the office, she said all i was to pay was my copay which is $20.00. So I was like cool, I am finally gonna get some relief maybe (for all that don't know I was in a rollover accident almost 2 years ago, I was driving, not at fault) But has caused me so many problems since. I even have a Titanium plate in my neck, and even though it did ease some of the pain, I am not completely out of pain.......In fact I wake everyday with something hurting, and it sucks because I have 4 kids that I have to try and take care of and act like everything is okay for them, when in fact I am not. Okay back to AssHat of the day, so I arrive for my appointment 30 minutes early like I was supposed to, get to the front desk and the lady came back and said $350.00................I was like what??? I said NO that is not right, I spoke to the insurance lady and she said all i pay is my copay. So she said Hold On, went to the back to do what, I have no idea....Anyway she came back and said no sorry it is in fact $350.00. So I was like screw that, I left the place pretty much in tears. I came back called the insurance lady that I had spoken to and although she didn't return my call that day, she did so the next day. I told her what they told me up front and she agreed that it didn't make sense , so she said that she was gonna call some people and that she would call me back to find out what the hell was going on. So she called me back and guess what? I only pay my 20.00..........She was really apologetic and said the girl up front that told me that stuff was new, but then she said she still don't know why she told me that since she had printed out a paper that said I was only to pay my $20.00.........So they all got their assess chewed out by the insurance lady (yes!) lol And they are squeezing me in tomorrow because of their mistake, otherwise I would have to wait up to 2 months for another appointment. But being that I showed up on time and I wasn't at fault, they are making up for their mistake. So yeah tomorrow it is at 9:00 and I am nervous as fuck. See I was all ready last week when I went and now I had to wait again. I don't know what to expect or what is going happen, anyway we shall see.........

Saints Lost :(

Okay it has taken me a couple of days to recover from this blow (I know it is only football) but fuck we were doing so good and you know what? Even though we lost I am so fucking proud of the Saints, you guys rock and I can't wait till next season!

Asshat of the Day: Okay I hope this guy chokes on a chicken bone or something...........This was and is so not cool. I don't care how big of a Bears fan you are. Fuck you ASSHAT.............And for what it is worth, the Bears played an awesome game............So FUCK YOU...........

Saints/Bears Today.........

So nervous today. I am rooting big time for our Saints here........I can not even explain the emotions of the people here. I know I know it is ONLY football...........But those of you that have never rooted for the Saints, like we have since I was a small girl, only to see them fail time and time again........Well maybe you would understand. We need for them to WIN, NEW ORLEANS needs for the Saints to win. So who do you think will win today? I know a lot of people think that weather is a big advantage to the Bears, BUT some if not all of the Saints have played in those type of weather conditions in college. I mean they are not actually from Louisiana and have lived here their whole life, A lot of them are from up North and would be used to the snow and what not.........Granted they can't really practice in it over here, but when it comes down to it all. I don't think that the "weather" is going to be a factor no matter what "they" say. The odds are good though for the Saints, everyone is picking them (well according to the NFL channel) They want them to win , we want them to win..............So my question above, who do you think will win today. And if you are for the Bears good for you, but don't leave your ranting about how you think the Saints suck here and that it is just "LUCK" cause I will just tell you to go fuck yourself, its my blog, why not? haha

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Google AdSense?

How do I get the Google Advertisements on my page? I inserted the code and nothing........does anyone know what I am doing wrong?? :(

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It's true!

Yeap it is not a rumor they are in New Orleans living and Maddox will be going to school there.



Chortler - Today in Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie



Good luck yall....

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Speaking of Brad and Angelina Pitt

This just in from The View :: Brad and Angelina are moving to New Orleans.



So the famous couple will only be about 1hr and 45 minutes from moi. How lucky are we, haha

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Bradgelina

I don't know what is up with her...........But I used to like her, I really did. But yesterday when I saw E! Channel trying to interview them, Brad talked but she just........I don't know, she just stood there like that, not talking. She seemed kind of stuck up to me, or is it just me? Whatever I guess.......



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Snow Day In Louisiana (When Hell Freezes Over!)

So the kids are off of school today. I really don't know why except that it is really cold out, well cold for us down here in the South. It is 36 okay? Alright? I don't want to hear it from the northerners that we are a bunch of wimps.........Because I already know this mannnnnn. So I think we were supposed to get some ice or something but that didn't happen so the kids are now home, a snow day if you will. Now why don't they react like this when the weather is really bad, ummm I don't know like when a fucking hurricane is headed toward us? Yeap they will wait till the last minute for that, but a little cold weather and everything in the town shuts down. I know we are ass backwards here. I wouldn't want to live anywhere else though, I would totally feel out of place and I need CRAWFISH. Yes that is a must, I will DIE if I don't get it at least once a year, that is all I need......So yeap even with all of its flaws, I could never leave Louisiana......





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And the beat goes on...

Oh man I hate being SICK! It is the plague in our house, it just needs to go away like today. And what the hell is wrong with people? They found two twin embryo's in the sewage line of some apartments......I don't know if it was in Louisiana or what, but for real.........I am just speechless and don't know what to say.



AssHat Of The Day-On the way to the bank this morning, as I was driving along , the weather here has been less than desirable. Well anyway it is pretty cold outside (37) and raining, but no sleet or anything, well this truck/SUV decides to quickly pull out in front of me and in doing so proceeds to do a 360..........So I stop, look at him stupidly and wait for him to back up and get back into the correct position. Well this fool is going to the post office. THE FUCKING POST OFFICE and he was in that much of a hurry that he had to quickly pull out in front of me on a busy road , slippery at that, do 360 and go to post office. He must have had some important mailing to do that is all I know........AssHat.

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Who Dat??

Saints and the Bears.........And you know I am all for the New Orleans Saints so GEAUX SAINTS!!

The Thinking Meme

1. If you had to choose one vice in exclusion of all others what would it be? Belle had a good answer, Sweet Tea.........I can't live without Sweet Tea...........But I think I would have to say and don't ridicule me or say anything shitty but right now I can 't live without my anxiety medication (Kat knows alllllll about this and she was the first one I confided in about this (non-family)

2. If you could change one specific thing about the world what would it be? Oh gosh. I think I'd get rid of money and go back to the barter system. That way everyone truly earns what they have. *I couldn't have thought of a better answer myself Belle, I LOATH money , oh and cars*

3. Name the cartoon character you identify with the most.
Patrick the star from Spongebob, I can be so out of it like him at times.

4. If you could live one day in your life over again which one would it be?
Probably just to spend one more day with my grandmother and really ask her personal questions like: Why did she not get married again after my grandfather and her split in 1948? She lived a widow all of her life until her death in 1992..........Was it because she stilled loved my grandfather who was an alcoholic and did not want anything to do with my mom, I mean questions like that.........I was 17 when she died so I really did not even think about asking her those questions but now that I am married and have a family of my own I just always wonder if she was lonely...........

5. If you could go back in history and spend a day with one person who would it be? See number 4

6. What is the one thing you lost, sold or threw away that you wish you could have back? Probably a lot of toys or clothes that my grandmother had sewn for me......

7. What is your one most important contribution to this world? Ummmm, can I get back to you on this one?

8. What is your one hidden talent that nearly no one knows about? I have no talent. I am talentless...........I can cook a mean gumbo though, if that counts at all??

9. What is your most cherished possession? The golden rose my husband gave me on one of our anniversaries.

10. What one person influenced your life the most when growing up?
No one that I can recall right now..........

11. What one word describes you better than any other?
Strange- I am a mother to 4 with a pierced tongue and tattoo who happens to listen to rock, very LOUD in the car and I wear nothing but black.............

Swollen Ankle

I swear there is always something wrong with one of my body parts. Today it is my calf and swollen ankle. They then sent me to have an ultrasound done to rule out a possible blood clot, good news no blood clot...........Bad news they have no fucking idea why I have fluid build up around my ankle............I don't have an ankle, I have a cankle, seriously...........So yeah what next? The doctors still haven't called me back to let me know what to do or if I need to be on some sort of meds besides pain killers..........Anyway...............Will post more about this shit later.

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Potato Soup Part II

Potato Soup recipe that I just LOVE ::

INGREDIENTS

• 9 baking potatoes
• 2/3 cup butter
• 2/3 cup all-purpose flour
• 6 cups whole milk
• 1/2 tablespoon salt
• 1 teaspoon ground black pepper
• 1/2 cup bacon bits, divided
• 4 green onions, chopped
• 10 ounces shredded Cheddar cheese
• 1 (8 ounce) container sour cream

DIRECTIONS

1. Prick potatoes with a fork and cook in the microwave, 3 or 4 at a time, and scoop out the flesh (while the others are cooking).
2. In a large saucepan over medium heat, melt butter. Stir in flour and cook about a minute. Whisk in milk, a little at a time, stirring constantly until thickened. Stir in potatoes, salt, pepper, 1/3 cup bacon bits, 2 tablespoons green onions and most of the cheese. Cook until thoroughly heated. Stir in sour cream and heat through. Serve topped with remaining bacon, onions and cheese.

Potato Soup and Teens

So I am off to cook supper and then bring my almost 14 year old to a school dance with a friend along with her 10 year old sister........When did my daughter become a teen and why do I have to make supper.............umm oh yeah to feed the kids...........

Template fixed?

Okay after being away from blogging for what seems like forever (it has only been 2 years) but alot has happened in 2 years let me tell you. Some good and some bad. I lost all of my blogging buddies out there and I do hope some of them find me :( I have been hanging out at MySpace alot, but I don't like posting blogs there because EVERYONE reads them and family and friends are on my friends list and well I am just not comfortable with that....Anyway I am back....And I will post an update of what has been going on with me.........