I Carry Your Heart

I haven't posted in awhile for many reasons. These past few months have been very emotional for our family. Months for firsts without Lizzy here. In July we went on our first vacation without her. We had fun but she was always in the back of my mind. August 14th was her 11th birthday and we had to go to the cemetery to wish her a Happy Birthday and leave flowers, balloons and a soccer ball. No parent should have to go through that. Three days after her birthday is my birthday and I miss her homemade birthday cards. She would make me one for every holiday, I just found a couple more in the attic a few weeks ago. School started , she would be in the 6th grade. I miss seeing her get off the bus and coming inside asking for a snack and helping her with homework. My oldest daughter came home Friday with a folder of papers that Lizzy worked on in the 5th grade. One of the papers was titled "Why Am I Special" I really broke down reading her answers. In it she spoke of three wishes for her future, what she wanted to be when she grew up and who her hero's were, which were us, her family. The above picture is taken from one of her birthday's. She also loved poetry so below I will add one of my favorite poems by E.E. Cummings "I Carry Your Heart" I Love You Busy Lizzy To The Moon And Back.......

Today I am thankful for my family and friends who try to keep me sane, I love you all....

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)