Wounds That Will Not Heal

Well we had a Christmas and a New Year's without you, our very first. I thought Christmas was going to be hard, but I just thought of that as any other day. New Year's was more difficult because number one, I knew you LOVED to light those fireworks :) And well number two, was that I was leaving 2007 behind, the year you lived and died. And now we are in a new year and you aren't here at all and this is proving to be very difficult for me. I want you to know that I did end up watching the fireworks and they were beautiful just as you were, and you were all I thought about when I saw those fireworks go off. Not sad thoughts. But happy ones. I imagined you running to light fireworks next to your brother and sister and then running back, just in time before they went off. And I smiled thinking about that ;
) Anyway I need to go and visit you for the New Years, I went for Christmas and brought some things for you. I also put a picture of you in a ziploc bag, doubled up so that people knew how beautiful you were and those big blue eyes! I think what ever purpose you were put here on this earth my dear, you served it well. Many people miss you. Holly had her baby, named her Claire Elizabeth and Parrain Shawn and Nannie Lauren are having a baby boy soon, they named him Ian Jacob, how cute huh?? Your brother just had his 6th birthday and he is getting so big, he misses you. You two were good buddies. And Nick he is going to be 8 soon!! He has been doing things that you like doing like skating and sometimes he will pull out one of your old soccer balls, he and David will kick it around in the backyard. Kristen misses those fights you two used to have, lol She would give anything for one more day just to tell you that she loves you, just as we all wish. Oh and she is borrowing your belt, you know the one with the flames on it that you picked out at Wal-Mart? Well she has to wear a "normal" belt tomorrow, not the type that she likes, you know the punk/metal type. She felt bad about using your belt but I told her that you wouldn't mind and I know you wouldn't since you were so giving.............We are going to see LSU kick butt tonight at Thomas's house, he misses you as well and Russell also, their lives have changed forever since you came into their lives and I think for the good. Ms. Lori says she wouldn't be surprised if one of her children didn't name their daughter's Elizabeth, after you. Anyway sweetie, I am signing off for now since I have to help your dad prepare the snacks for the LSU game party, whatever you want to call it :) I know you are having a blast where ever you are, you know my beliefs. Life is a circle I once told you, Birth, Death and then Reborn. So I find it odd that two of your cousins became pregnant after you passed away, one having trouble getting pregnant, if you had a hand in this, Thank you. I will see you again one day............possibly in my dreams again??

Love,
Mom

To The Moon And Back I Love You

P.S. I finished my tattoo of you!! I know you would get a kick out of that and all I can hear you saying is "Sweeeeeet" with a big grin on your face............Missing you so much :(
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